Self-esteem is the main course in our daily life. Those who are deal with it since their childhood it is very difficult to come over it. Yes, it is true! As for my self, I felt this thing as early as 7 years old girl. I felt not good enough in everything such as prettiness, cleveress, fairness , smartness and etc. Why it happened? I thought I was brought out  with this feeling, with this guilty and not enough syndrom. Whose to blame? My family, my sibling, my friends, schools, communities, teachers, lecturers, or my self?

Friend, please correct my English. Thank you

Please, tell your self, don’t look at yesterday, yesteryear. Look for present, look for future. Yesterday already past, nothing can changed what history was, but we can change the future. So, live in present.

Tried to read Don’t be sad, but it absolutely make me sad.

Give up?  No! No way!  Till now, tomorrow and forever.

Fall become an end. Three days snowfall eventhough it light shower but really change my mood. Darkness come again. More depress. Tempreture drop until below single digit. OMG I don’t know how to manage my mood.

As for my self ,when comes about self-esteem and  self confidence topics, it always up and down. At one day when I woke up I feel so happy and courage but  on another day it twisted. I wonder why I can’t control my mind. I feel bad about everything even it’s a very small matter or nothing for the others.  Why? Yes, it’ s symphtom of depress but how to get rid without drugs?

Learning English as a second language is not easy. May be not everybody agreed with me but it happened to me. Sometimes I want to give up but deep in my hearth said no.

Everytime I tried to write something , I started to think in my mother tongue and translate to English. How to overcome this problem? Could someone outhere answer my question?

Dear friends, please do not hesitate to correct my English. Many thanks.

Hi,

Remembered, I’am away for a few days. Yes, I had been in English Country.  When my first step touch down the English country I can see everything written in English. Yes! this is a great oppurtunity for me to speak English. The very first people I greet was a man at the imigration counter.

 How wonderful experience! He’s completely  understand what I’m saying. What I thought, he haven’t  notice I’m not native English speaker. The taxi driver easily knew the place I suppose to go even I didn’t show him a written address. Voila..am I dreaming! no I’am not!

Suddenly, I thought of Gretta, hows right she is. I’m underestimate my self.

Started from today I will change how I look at my self. I’ll keep in my mind that I will be somebody I want as long as I try.

Dear friends, please do not hesitate to correct my English. Much appreciated in advance.

Promise is the word everybody always said even with  or without notice.  As I did, promise to be honest  in all of my actions including writing English.

Many questions remained  to native English speaker that why I make hard to my self to learning English. My answer are:

1. English is an international langguage which is  everybody from any part of the world use it as comunication.

2. Most spoken langguage in the world.

3. Widely spoken in many countries, especially commenwelth .

4. Gain self confidence and easier to make friends.

5. Better knowledge because most of the latest news come from native speaking English countries.

6. Acceptable everywhere and make it friends easier.

7. Others.

Dear friends, do not hesitate to correct my English. Thank you.

Word for today: Curfew – Have to stay in house because of unsafe situation.

I started my wordpress blog on 17 January 2007.  Main objective of this blog to improved my English Language. I took the opportunities of  using internate to learn English.

Of course, I attended numbers of English courses but it ‘s static without improvement. Even one of my teachers told me that I underestimate my self.

Absolutely yes! I can felt the true Ms Gretta told about my attitude without doubt. Unfotunately I can’t overcome my problems alone.  Once you have experienced low self esteem from the early age, it’s hard to gained back .

I still remembered during my adolence time, my cousins hate me because I’m not fair enough. I’m always feel not enough: not good enough in all subjects, not pretty enough compared to girls in the college, not smart enough among office friends and etc. Since then I read a lot about self-help. Even I subscride every single self-help blogs/web. Still struggle to implements and practice on daily life. Sometimes I felt thas life was really unfair to one another. But at the same time I know everything happen have a reasons and GOD have planned for everyone. 

Until yesterday on 25th June 2009 at 9.15 pm blog stats showed 1000 people stoped by at my blogs. I don’t mind it’s by random pick button, stumble coincidently, pass by or what so ever, most important have people outside there read what I had wrote, know about my passioned to learn English. Thank you very much for those who was commented and corrected my English.

I will keep dicipline on writing, have proper schedule and not give up.

Dear Friends, Old and young please do not hesitate to comment mand correct my English.